Depression

I will continue from where I left it hanging last time, the “break-up” with Dana. Short story is that she found another to make her happy, closer to her, as between me and her were about 200 miles, and I decided to forget about her, that doesn’t mean it was easy of course. After Dana, I made an oath to myself not to get involved in a new relationship for at least 6 months, and I did, for even more.

I gave myself to work, and spent time as much as I could with friends and kept myself away getting too close with any girl. However I have been enjoying some flirting activities with one girl. She was involved with someone else and maybe that was the reason I was so relaxed and not worry about my oath. I was only chatting over YM with her like once in a month or less, but even when she was offline I felt the need to leave her an offline message.. something stupid usually : Hi there! or hello lady!

Let’s go to September 2009, since between July 2008 and September 2009 nothing important really happen on this field. Here I was after nearly one year since Dana, by now I was completely cured and I felt the need to get close to some girl. Soon I was turning 19 and I was all alone, you must admit that is very sad for anyone to experience, of course we all have friends and parents and relatives which can make you feel complete and happy, but for me that was still incomplete. What choices did I have? What could I do? Most of you probably would have gone to a club to meet a new girl and make sure she notices you, then get to action, but I forgot to mention.. back then I was getting really nervous even at the thought of hitting on a new, total stranger girl. What would you do if you were me?. .