Distance relationship

Hi there! So here I was, single, shy and with mainly two choices: a long range risk or a short range risk .

I say this because, in my opinion, a relationship started on Internet tend to minimize the risk involved for a long term relationship while the face-to-face tend to have a higher risk. I choose to give another chance to long distance relationship, this would be the 4^th.

First one was 160 miles, lasted 2 days since the meet-up,

Second, 90 miles, lasted 4 days since the meet-up,

Third, 200 miles , lasted about one month since the meet-up

This would be the fourth , here it is the beginning, you remember I was chatting once in a while with a girl who was already in a relationship, it passed about one year since our first chat so during that time we exchanged phone numbers, but we didn’t dare to call each other for whatever reason. September 2009, the 9^th , I got a new job and I decided to send this mysterious girl after all one message. In order to make you understand how shy I was took me 3 days to finally send it, the first message to her was sent on September 12^th because those 3 days between I was thinking what if she will be upset?, what if her boyfriend will see the message?, what should I write?, who am I to confuse her ? and many, many other questions pessimistic ones mostly. But in the last day I needed just one optimistic idea to determine me push the “send” button: what if she’s the one? So I sent to her my first innocent message at midnight: “Good night!”